Today is Thanksgiving. There were just three of us, which did not stop me from making a roast plus six sides and two desserts.  My fondness for cooking is probably rooted in it's novelty. My Grannie was an enthusiastic but questionable cook and her Daughter, my Mom, was a uniquely ghastly cook. She had a creative way of combining ingredients without regard for the finished product. Her classic meal was the black and blue steak (burnt outside, raw inside) with mostly-done baked potato, lettuce and tomato salad. [Ya'know those uniform Styrofoam tomatoes that came three in row in a little plastic box? No cooked vegetable ever appeared on our dinner table through my entire childhood.  This from a woman whose Father was a produce wholesaler. Her alternate classic was brisket of beef cooked until the bottom adhered itself to the pan and my Father would have to serve to the meat by cutting horizontal slices or more accurately shreds. She went through several pans until she started lining them with foil. After that she would just dispose of the lower third of the brisket along with the foil. Very tidy.

Mom once decided to make a real stove-top pot roast in honor of her Father-in-Law coming to visit. It was an electric stove with a knob that turned 360 degrees. She thought she was turning the stove knob to low but actually turned it all the way around to high. Off she went to town in her big Thunderbird, with my Sister and I in the back seat. The pot roast boiled away in it's closed container, quickly turning into a lump of coal in a puddle of suet. Black greasy smoke oozing out, spreading through the house.

Grand-dad was a sweet man, he lived in Miami taking care of his three Sisters. It was an overnight bus up to Washington DC to meet his Son, my Dad, at Dad's office for the one-hour ride back to the suburbs. He deserved a nice quiet meal and a rest in the bosom of his loving family after that trek. Unfortunately it was not to be. When they arrived and Dad opened the house door, an acrid black miasma eddied out.

The house was full of smoke they couldn't see a hand in front of their faces. Dad was the kind of guy who always had a cotton handkerchief in his pocket. It came in handy that evening as he wet it at the hose bib, wrapped it over his face and checked the beds. He was relieved that we weren't home; he had been afraid we might have been overcome by the fumes.

Standing by the kitchen door through the dense blackness, he then noticed a little glow in the direction of the stove. He couldn't see what was there but went over and swung out with his hand to fan the air, or lack thereof. His action knocked the lid off the pot roast pot. In the covered pot the tallow had rendered from the pot roast, smoldering into a superheated puddle of fat. With the lid off, whoosh, the influx of air hit the grease which ignited with a bang! A column of fire shot up from the stove, clarifying the situation for my Father, as clearly as that column of fire in the desert had lead the Israelites. The flame shot as high as it could, making a perfect circle on the kitchen ceiling and singed off Dad's eyebrows along the way.

When Mom drove up to the house a half-hour or so later, from the driveway we saw, as silhouettes on the kitchen porch against the setting sun, the large Buddha-like shape of Dad,  the smaller but even more Buddha-like bulk of his Dad and a column of black smoke billowing out of the kitchen door. Mom quietly said "Oh, Dear”, I said "Oh, S#1t!" and Sis said "We're DEAD!". but Dad just said “Honey, you should have just told me you wanted to go out to eat.”

What is the sound of one hand crafting?

No it's not a zen thing. It is what happens when you are right handed and have your right arm in a block and tackle for six weeks. What craft projects are practical with one arm? Basically, knitting. No wrist strength for jewelry; no lifting for wood working; no expansive gestures for cooking; no extensive reading or eye strain. Thank goodness  yarn and needles are light and I tension the yarn in my left hand.

The underlying issue - - I have to be "working".  Is this unique? People lay about at the pool and beach, watch soap operas and sports, complete crosswords. 'Can't just sit and chat,  I have to be physically occupied with a three dimensional object. A few months ago I retired after 30 years with an employer. Why can't I just sit back and enjoy my leisure, particularly with my arm in a sling? No Puritan I, what bizarre perversion of the Puritan work ethic is at play here?

Art and crafts were always my refuge. Occupied in design and construction, my mind could wander worry free. It has always been that the activity of my hands drained the anxiety from my mind. With few things to worry about I should be able to relax but instead I design future projects and for the present sit and knit...